I am flexing my smile and my arms because I am redeemed and free.
Did you know that last week was national eating disorder awareness week?
As a mental health professional and someone who has walked the dark road of eating disorders, I felt it was my responsibility to share the importance of recognizing excessive and restrictive patterns of eating AND/OR working out.
6 years ago I was a restrictive eater and over exerciser. I would workout 2+ hours a day and was a slave to calorie counting ensuring it didn’t reach a certain number each day. I let my health journey HINDER my life. I avoided social events. I used food or lack of food as punishment. I was in bondage. I refused to surrender, which dragged my valley out even longer. Then I hit rock bottom. I was so convinced I was being “healthy” when in reality my body was falling apart. I lost my monthly cycle for a year, hair was falling out and I was so empty inside—stuck in anxiety + depression + in a hustle that led no where.
I didn’t realize that I was self-medicating with exercise…eventually I began self-medicating with food when I was then diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder in 2012.
I finally humbled myself to see the truth of my condition in 2013 and gave God full control over my life—including my health journey—. In time, I began to see myself the way He does and learn how to invite Him into something as simple as “health.” Through discipline + self control (by the power of His Spirit) I starting creating new habits. Holy habits. Holy habits were prompted by discipline NOT motivation.
This is what now fuels my passion as a faith+fitness coach. I will not do one without the other. I share because there are others out there stuck in this cycle of defeat. I want you to know that freedom is possible but it’s not by your own doing or your own fixing. It comes with surrender not striving. Having a plan is great, but it’s the purpose that fuels the plan.
Just remember, your past is frozen. Your future is unknown. But your present? This is where you can create discipline. This is where you can surrender and commit to inviting God in because He is near to those who call on Him. I am always here if you need a friend/coach to guide you. What I offer (simple meal plans, workout programs, a community of women online to love and support you) isn’t what will transform you…but it will help put you on a path where transformation can happen. Only Jesus can do that.
Though I am a certified personal trainer through AFAA, I am not a nutritionist. Any food posts on this blog are simply related to my journey!