If you caught my Instagram stories last night (find me on @carenscorner) then you saw I was up WAY past my bed time due to lack of peace. I could not sleep. You see something big had happened in the last coupe of days. I was invited to be a part of a pilot test group within our health and fitness company to test out our newest program with Shaun T (favorite trainer!) that is coming out in 2019. Getting into these test groups is NOT easy! I have been a coach for 3 years and this was the first time I was selected to be in the 100 test group participants out of 400,000 coaches. I had always wanted to be in one…to experience the program before anyone else, give my feedback, etc.
While there was excitement, there was uneasiness. I couldn’t pin point why. I kept asking the Lord to clarify the decision. Yes? No? Nothing. I couldn’t hear Him. So I said, “Alright, I will take a step and I am asking that you would re-direct me if it’s not aligning with Your desire + plan for me.” So I sent the email, signed the contracts, and said yes. Cue my lack of peace and inability to sleep. I got up at 10:30pm and knew in my spirit that this was not the best choice (notice I didn’t say right or wrong…it wasn’t about right or wrong…it was about good and best).
I know many coaches will look at this and say “you’re being a bit dramatic, it’s just 6 weeks, what’s the big deal?” I just knew this. To be in a test group means COMPLETE and nearly perfect participation. You have to in order to see the effectiveness of the program so I totally get that! But there were 3 key reasons why I knew this wasn’t the best for me:
1️⃣It wasn’t best for my family. Point blank…if I can’t easily bring my family into it, I won’t do it. Ever since we took the food freedom course in May, I have finally found a nutrition approach that I can do with my family without ever “pushing” anyone. It’s so simple, realistic, FREEING, with no food rules and you can enjoy treats without guilt. To enroll in a more strict diet for 6 weeks would compromise all of that and it wasn’t worth the risk. I would rather wait till the program launches and still do it full out WITH the principles of this nutrition course.
2️⃣Luca’s birthday is the 26th and mine is October 1st. I refuse to ever miss my kid’s birthday cake. Call me ridiculous. I don’t care. I want to be fully present in those moments without the pressure of “perfection.”
3️⃣Modesty. I know this is a hot topic and I am not here to argue. 1.5 years ago God convicted me of my lack of modesty and so ever since I made a commitment that I will never be in just a bra and shorts. Not in before / after photos…not in workout videos…etc. This would require me to submit them (again I totally get it for the company, just doesn’t align with my values).
Why am I sharing all this with you? 2 reasons:
First, not every opportunity is going to be the BEST for you. Don’t just go along with something because everyone else is. Really seek the Lord to determine if it aligns with your priorities. For me it was my journey with Jesus and my family.
Second, If you are stuck trying to make a decision and you can’t hear God speak, take a step and let Him redirect if necessary. He will. Don’t overthink it.
Will I be committing to this program when it launches in 2019? Of course! I honestly can’t wait. But I will be doing it HIS way and I pray you’ll be joining me then! Thank you for taking the time to hear my heart. I pray this encourages + challenges you too.
A Bit About ME!
Hey friend! My name is Caren and I am so glad you stopped by! This blog is a bit of my corner on the internet where I share honest thoughts about my faith journey, fitness journey, doctor wife journey, and motherhood journey. ALL of it! The good bad and ugly! I pray that something I share encourages you today!