This morning in my devotions I decided to look at my Bible Gateway app to find this clip from the movie Son Of God where Jesus walks on water. I don't know if I am just extra emotional today but after this scene I was in tears. I can clearly remember so many times where I heard God ask me the same words He asked Peter, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
If you remember, Peter asked Jesus that if it was really Him to ask him to come to Him. So Jesus said, "Come." Peter boldly walked out, keeping his eyes fixed on Jesus the whole time. He stepped out of the boat and onto the raging waters as the storm continued around him. He was walking on water! Then, he looked around and lost focus. Instantly he began to sink and then cried out to Jesus. Jesus then instantly reached out to grab him.
Faith vs. Fear. Peter initially stepped out in faith but was then re-directed by fear. Take 3 minutes to watch this clip. It's not exact to the Bible so I would encourage you to open your Bible to Matthew 14:22-33. Walking on water is not logical. It doesn't make sense in the natural; but this is where we can't let faith be run by our mind. We must be obedient to God, knowing that He has it all under control.
"Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see."
I find I am seeing this scripture in a whole new light. I don't need to see. I will walk by faith.
Faith, faith, faith...it's the foundation of our walk with God. Many times I find God bringing me back to the basics of being his disciple and a Christian, which includes this word faith.
Oswald Chambers once said:
Many of us are faithful to our ideas about Jesus Christ, but how many of us are faithful to Jesus Himself? Faithfulness to Jesus means that I must step out even when and where I can’t see anything (see Matthew 14:29). But faithfulness to my own ideas means that I first clear the way mentally. Faith, however, is not intellectual understanding; faith is a deliberate commitment to the Person of Jesus Christ, even when I can’t see the way ahead.
As I mentioned on my Facebook page found here, I am going to be starting my triple challenge, which includes a word of the week, superfood of the week, and move of the week.
This week's word is, wait for it............FAITH
In my previous blog post I talked about surrendering my dreams and passions to God that I trust His timing and His perfect plan. I cannot surrender this dream (which I know I have not expressed on here yet...all in His timing) without having faith. My biggest weakness often gets in the way of this daily surrender though. What is it? My brain.
So you can see why when Mr. Chambers said: Faith, however, is not intellectual understanding; faith is a deliberate commitment to the Person of Jesus Christ, even when I can’t see the way ahead, I instantly knew that this needed to be my word of the week so I could really take the time to embrace daily surrender of my intellectual understanding and grab hold of the Person of Jesus Christ being confident that I will not be shaken when I can't see the way ahead.
So what do you say? Will you take the challenge with me and meditate on this word through out the week? I know commenting on blogs can be intimidating or weird but I would really love to start a conversation about this through out the week! Whether it's on my Facebook page or right here, let's encourage one another in this pursuit of holiness through Christ and standing firm on His promises.
Same thing with David. He was told he would be king but that didn't happen until nearly 40 years later! Then there's Abraham. He was told he would have a son but that didn't happen for over 10 years later! Do we have faith that God WILL follow through with His promise to us? It may take time, but thankfully God's timing truly is BEST. He sees our past, present, and future. He works all things together for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28).
So today I am learning to be content and holding on to God's promises. He is the one who created me. He knows my dreams and passions because He placed them in me. I will trust that where I am is for His purpose and glory and I WILL live with excellence in each moment I am blessed with.
I believe this question can be generalized to so many different things. Are you committed to your marriage or simply interested in keeping it afloat? Are you committed to being healthy or interested in making healthy decisions when it's convenient? Are you committed to sharing the gospel or do you turn off because you're worried about what others may think?
Hard questions. I don't know about you but sometimes I just hate confronting myself. I don't like confrontation to begin with but being honest with yourself just takes it on a whole other level! We have the power to choose. God is always present and His love never fails. His Word says that if we are faithless He remains faithful (2 Timothy 2:13).
So, what will it be? Are you bold enough to make the decision to commit your life to Him? To follow Him with all your heart? I am so thankful that Jesus was committed to His journey on earth and followed through with His purpose so that in His death we may have Life and just as God raised Him from the dead, we are raised with Him. What if Jesus was only interested in the plan? Well, that would mean He would only would have continued if it was convenient for Him. Pretty sure a gruesome death on a cross isn't what I would call convenient. No. He was committed.
Be bold enough to commit.
Join me in welcoming Graham Fehr (who also happens to be my amazing husband!) as he shares with us his heart and how he gave God the pen to write his story, even though it was not at all how he had imagined it would be!
Quick Bio: Graham Fehr. 26 years old. Currently residing in New Hampshire completing his final two years of D.O. school. Favorite sport: Soccer. Favorite hobby: Guitar. Favorite person: His wife (jk jk...not but really). Alright here we go!
Caren: For as long as you can remember being a doctor was something you were interested in. What was the original plan as you completed 4 years at Eastern Nazarene College?
G. Fehr: My plan coming out of college was to start medical school about 3 months after college graduation. I had applied to several schools and received several interviews so I thought I had a good chance of getting accepted.
Caren: So you and I know the original plan didn't go...well... the way you planned! What happened?
G. Fehr: As the months rolled by, one by one each school replied with a "thanks but no thanks." August rolled around and I was waitlisted for only one school. I didn't have a Plan B and was banking on getting into this school. However, I found out I was not accepted to that school the day after their new class had already started. This news really shook me. I felt angry, confused, and totally out of control.
Caren: What was your immediate reaction?
G. Fehr: I was certain this was the path God had for me. Why in the world was I not accepted somewhere? Up to this point, pretty much everything in my life had worked out perfectly. Why this? And why now? These were the questions that no one could answer. I remember each day asking God why and what was I supposed to do now? And for a long time, there was just silence. Each day was living those same questions over and over again. I had to accept that medicine may not be for me. I had doubts about whether I could cut the rigors of medical school.
Caren: How did you spend that year you were forced to take off?
G. Fehr: I ended up considering every other path in the healthcare field, but I kept coming back to medicine. It was the only career that I felt passionate about pursuing. But I knew what involved and the time it would take to try and apply a second time. This was when my dad mentioned applying to DO (doctor of osteopathic) schools. I had not considered this before and knew nothing about DO schools. After reading about their values and philosophy, I knew a holistic approach to medicine, taking into account the entire human being and not just physical illness, was key to leading people towards health and wellness. To make a long story short, I applied to several DO programs only 4 months after being rejected from MD programs. My first interview was at UNECOM in Maine and after my interview, I felt at peace with this program, their faculty, their students, and their philosophy. I distinctly remember on the plane ride home praying, "God, if you want me to go to UNECOM for school, make it perfectly clear to me. Let me know within a week yes or no." Normally, it takes at least 4 weeks for schools to respond with either yes or no. Exactly 1 week later, I received a letter saying I was accepted to UNECOM for the coming school year. I knew this was confirmation from God. I had other interviews at other programs already scheduled, but I ended up cancelling those and confirming my enrollment at UNECOM.
Caren: Looking back, how do you see Gods presence?
G. Fehr: These several months were extremely challenging on my faith. I had to move past the initial anger and confusion and come to trust that God knew exactly what had happened, that He saw me right where I was, and that He had a plan in store for me. More importantly, recognizing that the period of silence I experienced was in fact an answer from God - to wait on Him and put the faith I professed to have in Christ. I came to lean heavily, often daily, on several verses about God's faithfulness for those who seek him first.
Caren: If you can encourage others who are reading who may be in a situation where circumstances did not turn out the way they planned, what would you say?
G. Fehr: Just take one day at a time. That's all we are called to do. If situations don't turn out the way you expected, there is a reason. Instead of allowing yourself to be sucked into the negativity from life's circumstances, choose to be someone who sees the positive. 2 quotes that stuck with me through the years that I hope will encourage you:
"I may not know the answer, but I have learned to be at peace with the question."
"Instead of asking God 'Why?' ask 'What?' - what are you trying to teach me in this moment?"
A Bit About ME!
Hey friend! My name is Caren and I am so glad you stopped by! This blog is a bit of my corner on the internet where I share honest thoughts about my faith journey, fitness journey, doctor wife journey, and motherhood journey. ALL of it! The good bad and ugly! I pray that something I share encourages you today!