If you follow me on my Facebook page (Facebook.com/carenscorner) you know I go on LIVE often throughout the week to share devotionals, workouts, nutrition tips, recipes, etc. Well this past week I went on LIVE to literally cry in front of you. It was not an easy day. A series of unexpected events occurred and my response was panic, anxiety, fear, doubt, and a complete break down. There was a time I hated showing weakness, I hated crying in front of people, I hated vulnerability, and I hated the reality that I wasn't superwoman. It took some of my closest friends to speak truth in love by grace to me. They called me out (again with love) and exposed this "fake perfection" I was portraying and I listened. Confrontation is hard to accept but it is necessary and valued when it comes from those who genuinely loves us and love God.
So, with all that said, in the last 2 years I have grown in vulnerability and have learned that it is in my most tender and vulnerable moments that God shines through. In our faith journey there will always be suffering, unexpected events, doubt, and trials. Hiding them does not portray an accurate picture of following Jesus but neither does going through them with misery, hatred, anger, and defeat. Paul reminds us that there is JOY in suffering. That's basically the whole book of Philippians! Take time to read it...I bet you could read the whole book in like...15 minutes.
Today I just want to encourage you. As we mature in our faith and fall more in love with Jesus our reflex to suffering will change. It won't be a complete mental breakdown but a response that is grounded in faith and trust. It was clear that my time with God last week was not solid. It was fluffy. I am confident of this because my response was so "out there." I am thankful for hard times to remind me who I am leaning on. What about you?
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Hey friend! My name is Caren and I am so glad you stopped by! This blog is a bit of my corner on the internet where I share honest thoughts about my faith journey, fitness journey, doctor wife journey, and motherhood journey. ALL of it! The good bad and ugly! I pray that something I share encourages you today!