For the first time in about two weeks I am feeling refreshed, at peace, and confident of my purpose and identity. It's been a roller coaster ride with mixed emotions and division within myself. The best way I can explain it is that my body was in one place, my mind somewhere totally different, and my spirit was just kind of floating around randomly.
Thankfully, I was able to talk with my mom Sunday night and she prayed with me for 30 minutes on the phone. The whole time she was praying I was writing everything she was saying in my journal. I know that probably sounds awful but I knew the Holy Spirit was speaking through her and that I was going to need to come back to this moment.
In her prayer she kept mentioning Esther. She happens to be one of my favorite women in the Bible. I have always admired her selflessness, courage, loyalty, and her faith. In Esther chapter 4, Mordecai (Esther's Uncle), had learned about Haman's evil plan to completely wipe out the Jews (of which Esther was one). Mordecai pleaded with Esther to intercede on their behalf before the king (as she was now queen). Esther expressed concern as the law stated that anyone who comes before the king without being summoned is put to death unless the king extends his gold scepter. Mordecai's response was this (vs. 13-14) "Don't think for a moment that because you're in the palace you will escape when all other Jews are killed. If you keep quiet at a tim elite this, deliverance and relief for the Jews will arise from some other place, but you and your relatives will die. Who knows if perhaps you were made queen for such a time as this.
Every time I read this passage I get the chills. Is God allowing you to be in a difficult job where it may look in the natural as though there is no hope? Perhaps you were made for such a time as this.
Is your family unit struggling and there doesn't seem to be any compassion, love, or peace?
Perhaps you were made for such time as this.
More than anything, no matter what happens, I want people to see THE God behind Caren. Remember Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego? After the incident with being thrown into the fire, king Nebuchadnezzar said, "Praise be to the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, who has sent his angel and rescued his servants! They trusted in him and defied the king's command and were willing to give up their lives rather than serve or worship any god except their own God.
Others gave glory to God because they saw the devotion and complete submission of his servants. They bloomed for such a time as this.
Wherever you are right now, I believe your hardship will never be in vain. Allow God room to bloom through you for such a time as this...
A Bit About ME!
Hey friend! My name is Caren and I am so glad you stopped by! This blog is a bit of my corner on the internet where I share honest thoughts about my faith journey, fitness journey, doctor wife journey, and motherhood journey. ALL of it! The good bad and ugly! I pray that something I share encourages you today!